Everything was moving! The lamps, the table, the wall and all things hanged on it were circling me in high speed. My body felt so light that I could not tell if I was reclining or levitating. I rolled my eyes but it did not fix anything. Confused. Helpless. Not sure what to do. When I opened my eyes, I saw all these things spinning. However, when I closed them, what I could feel was free-falling into a bottomless pit. I guessed if I only had one eye opened I would see what Alice saw when she was falling down into the entrance of Wonderland. Sets of furniture floated around her falling.Suddenly, I felt so sick... very sick... that I jumped out of my bed and ran into the bathroom. And without a chance to take my head down closer to the toilet bowl, an uncontrollable stream of undigested food gushed out of my mouth. My body felt very weak after that disgusting scene. There was no energy left to even pull myself up from the bathroom floor. Powerless. But, a couple minutes later it came back again. I threw up again until there was nothing left coming out of my mouth. (Amazingly, then I still had the energy to clean my bathroom from all the nasty spills.)
Having crawled my way down to the kitchen on the first floor, I finally collapsed on the living room carpet. My stomach was growling. A burning sensation was creeping out inside my stomach. I bit my lips to take on the heat, but the pain was overwhelming! Lying down on the carpet, I kept moving my body to ease the pain. But no position actually worked! In fact, the pain was getting worse and worse. I pressed my stomach hard and curled it up as much as I could to make it numb. But no! It was still there! Feeling frustrated and desperate, I began to think about the worst. A scary idea cropped out of my mind. I believed that it would be it! That moment would be the last time I saw the day. Soon I would die from this sickness. Yet sadly, I had no chance to say my last words to anybody, because I was all by myself. Alone in the most critical moment of my life.
"Jesus, I will be with You soon. I'm glad because this will be the end of my suffering in this life. Please forgive my sins. And I also pray for my family.... my friends.... all these people you have placed in my life...", I whispered my final prayer with full hope that God would touch all the people I loved, so that I could meet them again in heaven. But, I did not finish the prayer, for everything silently went dark...
It all started right after I had my lunch at work. I brought the leftover from the dinner at my favorite restaurant the night before. As usual I just put the leftover on the kitchen table (not in the fridge), since I thought my home was pretty cold to make the food last. But I was never that wrong before! When I was eating the leftover, I believed I could smell some parts of the food had gone bad. However, with the spicy sauce, it still tasted good! So I finished it up.
About fifteen minutes later, I began to feel very sick. Lightheaded. Although I kept working, I had to rest my head on the chair. Until I could not stand it anymore, I directly told my boss that I was sick. After he gave me an Advil, my boss sent me home. Along my driving home from the office, I had a funny feeling that my car was skidding to the right all the time. Prayerfully, I convinced myself that it was just my headache talking. I did not stop asking for God's protection until I safely arrived at home. As soon as I parked my car, I dashed into the house. Unfortunately I did not make it all the way to the bathroom, because right at my kitchen sink, I threw up unstoppably (luckily, I made it to the sink). My lunch had found its way out — through my mouth and my nose! And things were going downhill from there.
An hour later...
When I opened my eyes, I had a mixed feeling about my presence. Half of me believed that I had crossed over to a different realm, while the other half said that I was still in the same life. It took me a few minutes to finally agreed that I was still alive! Not only that I was alive, but the burning sensation inside my stomach had also gone away. To prove my point, I poked my stomach in different spot, but really, the pain was fully gone! I smiled. Relieved. Amazed. What an experience to know that God was there for me and He saved me from the deadly incident. My heart was warm and filled with thanksgiving.
That afternoon, I came to God and reaffirmed my faith in Him. He had shown himself to be faithful. In my darkest moment, He embraced me by His arms and gave me rest. In my rest, He healed my sickness and soothed the pain. What an awesome God I have!
"Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands." - Deuteronomy 7:9
